If you see a woman in her mid-30s on a flight tomorrow with a Bloody Mary in her hand at 9 a.m. and a dazed look on her face as if she feels somewhat out-of-place, please come over and say hi. That woman will likely be me. And for once I’ll actually have time to talk to you, because for the first time in 16 months, I will be traveling without a child!
In less than 24 hours I will be leaving my house in the wee hours of the morning, while my sweet baby sleeps soundly. Not only will I be traveling without my child, I am also leaving my wonderful husband behind to play Mr. Mom for the weekend, while I take my first ever solo trip!
This is a milestone for me. In the past, I’ve traveled alone with our daughter, and in my single years, I took a lot of road trips to visit friends or family, but for the most part, I have never actually gone sightseeing by myself.
This weekend I will be traveling solo to Buffalo, New York to see a dear friend of mine say “I Do”, but while I’m there, I will also be visiting the wonder of Niagara Falls for the first time and crossing into Canada. I kind of have this weird fascination with waterfalls, so I have always wanted to see this iconic natural marvel, and I am looking forward to the opportunity. However, this will be the first time in my daughter’s 16 months of life that I have been away from her for more than six waking hours. And only twice have I been away from her even that long!
It truly is a bittersweet moment as I pack my bag for the short trip. On one hand, I am excited to see my long-time friend marry the love of his life, and to visit a part of the country I haven’t seen before. I am also excited to sleep in, to go a full 48 hours without having to saying “No, No,” and to not have to worry about diaper changes, 2 am wake-up calls, or bathing anyone other than myself.
But on the other hand, holy cow, I am going to miss my child! Anyone who knows me would tell you I’m a bit obsessed with my daughter, Avery. I’m a stay-at-home mother so I’m with her 24 hours a day. Anytime we travel, we take Avery with us, and even when my husband and I have a rare date night, I usually put her to bed first so she doesn’t even know we’re gone.
But this Friday morning, when she wakes up, it will be Daddy who picks her up and gets all of those sweet morning cuddles. It will be Daddy who rocks her to sleep that night, and when she says “Mama” like she so sweetly does about 540 times a day, I won’t be there to say “yes, baby?”
I know… That last paragraph sounds a bit silly. Even as I was writing it, I was saying to myself “geez, lady, pull yourself together! You’re only going to be gone for a weekend!” But there are definitely mamas out there who will understand the crazy attachment I have to this tiny human.
So while I’m sightseeing in upstate New York and Canada, my wonderful husband will be having some special daddy/daughter bonding time. Don’t get me wrong, I really wanted them to go with me to New York, but from mid-March until mid-June my husband can’t really travel because of his job. Truth be told, I think my husband is looking forward to this time alone with Avery. He’s already talking about taking her to the park or to a baseball game, which is incredibly sweet. 🙂 This weekend will be good for them… and for me, I suppose. Moms need time to themselves, too. Even if it’s hard to part with the kids, every mom should take a solo trip from time-to-time if for no other reason than to recharge and let someone else wait on you for a change.